The main reason my mental condition hasn't been up to much this week has been mainly because of the deterioration of my left hand but also because a dearth of events to take my mind off things and because of a lack of visits from friends, I'm not surprised, I would have lost interest in me a long time ago, on closer inspection I think I have. My left hand refuses to work (to the extent of a few weeks ago) we think because of the Ritalin but the explanation/theory is hardly satisfactory, ie that the Ritalin has shut down part of my brain that had previously re-learnt how to open my left hand, my carer even thought I'd had another stroke! It's difficult not to think that months of painstaking therapy has not been wasted. It's so demoralising. Even the fact that 3 of my best friends are raising/have raised some quite significant sums for the trust to help improve my quality of life. Firstly cycling enthusiast Dom Icely( read maniac!),
I myself feel slightly forlorn and think that a 'mail order bride'
In the meantime I try and spend my time looking for events that I and my friends would enjoy. I've got a couple of good ones coming up, on Sunday old mate Paul Reeves and his lovely (heavily pregnant) wife Iwona, even Reevesey is procreating! Good God, those that know him might chuckle, but the former 'King of Filth' (mainly for some of his squaddie stories
Regardless of laughter being a good medicine all 'real' medicine appears to either be useless – (most anti-depressants) which seem to have done sod-all and the Ritalin which appears to have set me back several months, is this seriously the best that medical science has to offer?
I have flown off on a tangent again!
The other point that I wanted to make was that two great mates. Shaun Rowland and Simon Winstanley, this is the picture they're using on their money-raising page!